Some friends I have

I wouldn’t say life sucks. I wouldn’t say I’m becoming an emo. I’m not. Ever since mindchamps ended, my number of friends suddenly droop again. And its in times like this, that I realize who my true friends are. Those who are willing to take the initaitive to call me and talk to me, or hang out with me.

I’m getting into a state of depression right now, and inside, I’m screaming. But heck, tat doesn’t mean I start listening to depressive songs like linkin park? I have to walk on the bright side of life!

Ee Thai’s facing the same problems as me. Hey, people like people who likes themself. Isn’t that right? Ee Thai, you’re not alone man. I read your blog and Benedict’s blog, and the’re both filled with hate and anger.

You put in the effort, but no one’s interested. They either get:

1) Jealous
2) Start to tease and criticize you
3) Think themself as superior than me
4) Think I’m completely wasting their time.

Well done. You’ve nearly broke me. I’m nearly crumbling under the verbal and peer assault.

Try organizing activities. Try being a leader. Try doing something together.

Inside me, my body is fighting an endless battle. My side of hate is overwhelming my other half. I’m gonna lose myself to becoming an emo like Ben.

Then I see the picture taken of mindchamps. I see Dingxiang’s face and Jieji’s erm… good looks. Then I realize, life nots so bad after all. I rather have 1 good friend than plenty of so called friends who forget you once you are gone. Thank you, Jieji. Thank you DIngxiang. You’re my true friends.

And thank you, Yonglun and Nicholas for standing by me day by day.

Cause friends don’t abondon you when you’re down. You all didn’t.

I HATE BEING AN EMO. I HATE THIS FRUSTRATION.

Always look on the bright side of life…

~ by lightvortex on April 7, 2007.