May 15th THE DAY OF CHANGE
Everyone grows. Nothing remains the same. Okay. Its May 15th. I’ve decided to coincide this day with the changing of my identity. No more lies, no more procrastination, no more jokes. I’ve been living a high life. I’ve lied to myself about thge amounting homework piled on my desk. I’ve lied to my mum that I’m fine. I’ve even lied to my best buddy that I can achieve the impossible.
So okay. No more big talk. Dreams will always be dreams unless u put them into action. Several path lies before me, but only one, will lead me to my destiny. I walked past the path of emo-gothic life. Strolled by the path of Jokes laughter. Ignored the path of Vengence and Vendetta.
If you don’t know what tat means, I’m not going to be an emo, or cry like a weaklings. Only weaklings cry. I’m gonna do wat I gotta do. Its been too long since I pretended to be someone who I am not. I’ve pretended to be dumb, just to get along with my friends with lower IQ. I cant take their slowness any longer. I’ve lied about being okay financially. My relatives are dropping dead, left right center, and my dad’s busy footing the medical bills.
I’ve lied when I told myself that my brother is better than me. He is younger, yet bigger and taller. I’ve labbelled myself as inferior than him. But hey, I got 231 for my Psle. Beats his 216. Plus, I was once in the gifted programme while my bro was not. I seriously regretted dropping it cause of higher chinese. The reason I’m not doing better than him now is cause I’m lazy.
And I’m kinda attached to this darn computer. Yup, the same com that I’m typing in. Stupid addiction. I’ve lied to myself that it was normal. Shit, I cant believe I told that many lies….
My family is tearing apart. My dad’s facing a financial crisis. My Exams are coming. I’ve been consumed by my friends lethargy. I’m sorry all my classmates. You’ve chained me down far too long. If I’m gonna be alone, thats fine.
At least I’m going to be at the top alone.
Theres some days where stress could kill you. But I really want to thank this stupid stress. Even though I’m haunted by it, it finally awaken the hidden monster within me.
Its been too long. Nows the time.
Damn you. I expected to see my reply instantly, thank you. Well, I probably won’t be seeing this reply 100% unchanged on the post ever.
Now this is weird. My long philosophical reply with lots of insight and a precious 30 minutes of my life got eaten up while the low–IQ one got posted instantly. Sigh.
In case you never read that hell of a post that got eaten up, you could try learning to ‘humble thy self’. Learn to laugh when others joke about you being a ‘failure’. It’s good self–discipline. Furthermore, you can create many low–IQ jokes at yourself. I replied by saying I was a brillant loser (laugh) (Ellimist parody) (you laugh too). I somehow got countered but 1. I created a topic of discussion. 2. If someone was spectating, it would appear I’m getting picked on while I was actually enjoying myself, their loss. 3. It’ll give good memories to look back on and feel nostalgic in the future. 4. You know that the ego of others aren’t at stake by the ‘jokes’. Actually, I find little kick out of joking about others. Now if only I could remember that verse in Proverds about jokes, firebrands and arrows…
day of change… just don’t arrogant john. a few people have noticed that you are very arrogant…
Actually, Jokes are my life. Or actually, used to be. I guess, I’ll always be that funny wild kid since kindergarden. You’re propably right. I should go for a sex change =P
Cause my current school life basically sucks.
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